Sunday, June 13, 2010

updates.

Well. It has been a minute. I am great at starting something like this, and then forgetting about it until months later. I tell myself that I'm going to really keep at it this time. But I know deep down the longest I'll go at it is maybe a few weeks. Then a few months down the road I'll wander my way back to my little blog and get motivated to start it again, swearing that this time will be the time that I keep up with it. So, we shall see.

Life has changed tremendously since my last blog in March.

There is a boy. I like this boy. Yes. It is the same one that I have mentioned time and time again.

I moved into that house. The one I was super excited about. . . I stopped being super excited. Life in Oshkosh continued to disappoint. Same stuff different day, you know how it goes. ;) The only thing that really kept things interesting was school. And of course I kept myself busy working more hours than a normal 22 year old should. both ended within a week of each other. [Sidebar ---> = sarcasm.] So all of a sudden I found myself with absolutely nothing to do. Good thing Bethel Home wasn't it the right when they fired my hard working ass. I have been living comfortably from their unemployment checks for about a month.

Yes, I am that lazy bum that has no job and lives on unemployment. But, NO MORE! I am happy to report that I have found an amazing job. A job that makes me ecstatic to say the least that BH said farewell. The best part of this job? Its in Minnesota. Another great thing? So is my grandma. Yep, that same gramma who happens to be a very dear friend of mine. No joke. My g'madre is good shit. Yet one more fantastic happening in my life? I found a subleaser. I get to live with grams for free and not have to worry about what Im going to do with my house over yonder in Oshy. Wonderful.

Life is good.
Life is splendid.
Absolutely perfect.



Fin.

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

stupid internet.

I just wrote an entire blog. After clicking "Publish Post," it was deleted. Bitches.
To sum it up;

-I waste too much time on FB
-I love The Black Keys
-I want to go to Bonaroo. Norah Jones = Heaven.
-I know this boy. Same one as before. He's pretty great.
-Love learning.

Peace out, Homies.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

bleh..

school.clean.work. ------> is my day.

bleh.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

grammer.

is spelled wrong on purpose, because I apparently fail at it while blogging, and don't realize it until after I "pubish." Whoops. Goes along with the whole "making up words" thing. My blog. Shut up.

Fin.

i love. . .

. . . my friends. My family. My life. Absolutely everything about it. I honestly don't know how I got so lucky in life to have these people around me. I would not change a thing about my life. It is perfect.

Since today's topic is happy things, I guess it's an alright time to throw it out there that I officially have a crush. And, as of now, I'm not even freaked out by it. And, it seems I haven't scared the crush-ee aways..yet. :) Guess we'll see.

I paid my security deposit on my new house today. Though I'm staying in Oshkosh another year, which is not where I wanted to be, I'm pretty excited about it. We get to start painting next week. Hmmm... decisions, decisions.

I spose I should get back to my already late psych paper. Till next time.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Dear Siddartha Guatama...

I'm starting to think that you had the right idea. This whole Buddhism thing really makes sense. It's almost as if everything that I already believe fits into it. There is no "self." We are one with everything, with the entire universe. There does not have to be one God, one Atman or whatever you feel like calling it. People put so much emphasis on believing in one specific thing, or being, or "higher power," (which is the term that I most often use(d)). Giving credit to those beings for all life just seems absurd. If there is a man in front of you who has been shot by a poisonus arrow, will you sit and ponder "Hmm. Maybe this was God's plan, for him to die." Or, " This is the way it was supposed to be.." No. You would get the arrow out and do what you could to save him. If there was one God, who had a plan for everyone then that dude would have been shot for a reason and was probably supposed to die.

Granted I am just starting to learn the very basics of Buddhism, it seems that their goal in life is to live the best way that you can. They talk a lot about living in a way that reduces the most suffering for everyone. Can you imagine what a great place this world would be if everyone thought of that, instead of putting their own desires and wants for material things first. I, sadly, don't think the human race is capeable of such selflessness.

Then again, I question if there is anything at all. All that every religion is, is an idea. Someone thought of something, and eventually it spread. What if everything that everyone believes was just some idea some guy came up with, and called it an epiphany? Or an enlightenment? What if there really is just nothing? Maybe the reason we believe all of these religions, or reasons for living, is because we'r scared to face the truth that when we're gone, there is nothing. Our lives had no secret meaning, and we merely cease to exsit. While this thought, obviously, crosses my mind, I find it hard to convince myself that there really is nothing. Maybe I'm hopefully because of the way I was raised. Or maybe I'm just hopeful that there is a greater cause, because the thought of nothingness is a very scary thought. For now, I'll stick with my gut. It doesn't seem to fail me often, and my gut tells me that the Buddhists might have been onto something. We are one with the universe, and we should strive to achieve eudaimonia through relieving suffering of everything, and everyone around and within us.

So, there's my thoughts for the day.


Also, I've decided to become a partial vegetarian. Switching from a regular diet to a vegetarian diet is comparable to swiching from a suburban to a hybrid car, on the amount of green house gas emmisions. I say partially, because I know it is a hard thing, and a very inconvinient thing for things such as family get togethers and whatnot. So, if it is a situation that I can control, there will be no meat involved. Also, I have a great love for all life, no matter what form it takes. Eating an aminal almost seems slightly barbaric.

That is all. For now.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

pants on fire.

I lied. I totally put this link on FB.

FB is going to take over the world soon.

Right along with designer babies.

And chimps.

Scary.