Dear Siddartha Guatama...

I'm starting to think that you had the right idea. This whole Buddhism thing really makes sense. It's almost as if everything that I already believe fits into it. There is no "self." We are one with everything, with the entire universe. There does not have to be one God, one Atman or whatever you feel like calling it. People put so much emphasis on believing in one specific thing, or being, or "higher power," (which is the term that I most often use(d)). Giving credit to those beings for all life just seems absurd. If there is a man in front of you who has been shot by a poisonus arrow, will you sit and ponder "Hmm. Maybe this was God's plan, for him to die." Or, " This is the way it was supposed to be.." No. You would get the arrow out and do what you could to save him. If there was one God, who had a plan for everyone then that dude would have been shot for a reason and was probably supposed to die.

Granted I am just starting to learn the very basics of Buddhism, it seems that their goal in life is to live the best way that you can. They talk a lot about living in a way that reduces the most suffering for everyone. Can you imagine what a great place this world would be if everyone thought of that, instead of putting their own desires and wants for material things first. I, sadly, don't think the human race is capeable of such selflessness.

Then again, I question if there is anything at all. All that every religion is, is an idea. Someone thought of something, and eventually it spread. What if everything that everyone believes was just some idea some guy came up with, and called it an epiphany? Or an enlightenment? What if there really is just nothing? Maybe the reason we believe all of these religions, or reasons for living, is because we'r scared to face the truth that when we're gone, there is nothing. Our lives had no secret meaning, and we merely cease to exsit. While this thought, obviously, crosses my mind, I find it hard to convince myself that there really is nothing. Maybe I'm hopefully because of the way I was raised. Or maybe I'm just hopeful that there is a greater cause, because the thought of nothingness is a very scary thought. For now, I'll stick with my gut. It doesn't seem to fail me often, and my gut tells me that the Buddhists might have been onto something. We are one with the universe, and we should strive to achieve eudaimonia through relieving suffering of everything, and everyone around and within us.

So, there's my thoughts for the day.


Also, I've decided to become a partial vegetarian. Switching from a regular diet to a vegetarian diet is comparable to swiching from a suburban to a hybrid car, on the amount of green house gas emmisions. I say partially, because I know it is a hard thing, and a very inconvinient thing for things such as family get togethers and whatnot. So, if it is a situation that I can control, there will be no meat involved. Also, I have a great love for all life, no matter what form it takes. Eating an aminal almost seems slightly barbaric.

That is all. For now.

pants on fire.

I lied. I totally put this link on FB.

FB is going to take over the world soon.

Right along with designer babies.

And chimps.

Scary.

boredom is a virute.

Or so they say. I, however, am not a fan of this being bored thing. I guess if I really tried I could make myself unbored. Yes, this is my blog so words like "unbored" are absolutely alright to use. I actually have plenty of things to do, papers to write, people to stalk on facebook... Yet here I sit, bored. And complaining about being bored. Hm.

Now, I shall tell you (whoever you are... which besides you, Jenn, I believe is an imaginary person... :))

Got up early. I had to come to school early, because I procrastinated writing a paper that I was assigned at least 2 weeks ago. Whoops. Found out once I got here, that my morning class was canceled. Most people would be glad. I, was not. Ethics was the class, Evan is the teacher. In love, is what I am.. with both. :) So then I typed my paper, went to see one of my most favorite people in the entire world. Came back. More school. More school yet. Class got out early. And here I sit. Fin.

Pretty amazing, right?

I thought that having a blog might make me record things more frequently, because obviously I am too lazy to keep an actual journal. Though, it seems I am just as lazy at this.

Hmm.. I guess I could talk about boys. Maybe then more people will read this... I mean there is this one boy. I happen to think he's an alright guy. I'm pretty excited to see what happens. Excited, but a little nervous too. I tend to freak myself out whenever this feeling comes around, which it doesn't seem to do very often anymore.. I guess only time will tell.

Weezer can explain my feelings better than I can;

You came out of nowhere.
Man, you really freak me out.
I'm so afraid of you.
And when I lose my cool,
I don't know what to do.
I know you don't mean no harm,
you're just doing your thing.
But man, you really freak me out.


<3


That is all.

Virgin

I've never blogged before. This is kind of weird. It's like an online journal. Except for the entire world to see. Which I suppose is alright. Sometimes you just have things that need to be talked about, and heard. I mean... I don't really expect any feedback, and I'm not going to put this website any place so that people who actually know me have access to it... but knowing that someone is listening, even if you dont know them, sometimes makes a person feel better. A person like me anyway. So, since this is my very first blog ever I'm going to keep it short and sweet. I like to get to know a person, become comfortable with them, before going for it.