Off button.

Of my list of things to do yesterday, I accomplished all but cleaning the bathroom. I'd say that's pretty good. I even found this cool book store about cinco minutos from mi casa! Mhmm..

Still no word on the job front. I had a work meeting yesterday, and decided that if I do get this new job, I really want to stay with the one I'm at now. They are a great company. It's refreshing to work with people who actually care about what they do.

Brains should come with an off button. I think sometimes I get so bored that my brain just goes on and on and on. It needs to just shush for a minute.

I hate not being in school. It is making me crazy. And, I've still got a good 10 months before going back. I know I'm doing the right thing in not going back right now, and trying to save some money, but it's still driving me innnnnnsaaaaannneeee!!!!!

Blah.Blah.Blah.Blah.Blah. This blog sucks. I'm aware. If someone is reading it, I apologize. I am being a whiner baby. Big time.

Yay for noontime dates with friends though. Kimberly and I are going to a movie. Wahoo!

Make a wish. It's 11:11. <3

ellen.

Today's agenda;

Give Kimberly a ride to school.
Watch Ellen.
Clean the bathroom.
Work meeting.
Buy a new book.

I just finished reading "His Dark Materials." Intense. My brain is still a little mushy from it. It's one of those books that you wake up in the middle of the night thinking about. It is a trilogy, but I didn't want it to end. I've found that I don't like not knowing how things end up. In the far future I mean. The book ended well. Albeit, there were a few loose ends left to the imagination. I know, that's part of what makes a good book. I like the way my imagination continues the lives of the characters, but I don't like not knowing for sure if that's the way it would have been. This trilogy is completely fictional, and I am aware that something that isn't real shouldn't bother me so much. But it does.

I moved. I now live in a house full of 3 stinky boys and 2 big dogs. Just kidding. The boys aren't that stinky. A little messy sometimes though. It's fun. And the rent is cheaper. And I have cable and internet. And I get to see this one boy every day. <3

Yesterday, I had a job interview. It was at a nursing and rehab facility, and I'm reaaaallly hoping that I get it. Yes, I still work with At Home Solutions (the at home care place), and I really like the few clients that I have. The problem is that I am only working 12-14 hour weeks. Even with cheaper rent, it's impossible. I don't want to assume that I have this new job, and jinx myself, but if I do get it I hope that I am able to work something out so that I can at least keep working with AHS one day a week. I think that might be do-able.

That last paragraph had a lot of "I's." I suppose that's alright, since this is a blog about me.

I've decided that I love Ellen. She seems like a pretty real person. Her show is hilarious, and I like that she's all about helping people, and making this world a better place. I usually don't watch many talk shows (besides Maury, cuz you just GOTTA KNOW who those baby daddies are..) but I try and wake up by 9 every morning to catch hers.

I'm 18 minutes into "The View," and 18 minutes late for my bathroom cleaning date.

Till next time.

recent happenings.

It's been another few months, and even more changes than before. Wowza.

That super great job, that I was super duper ecstatic about? Meh. Wasn't the best. I found myself unemployed yet again. This time with no unemployment checks to rely on. And, of course, this joblessness happened within a week of signing a lease for my very own apartment. An apartment which I could absolutely afford bringing in $800 big ones a week. So that was fun. But blogs aren't about the troubles in life, well mine isn't at least.

After a month of being a bum, again, I found another job as a CNA. Im happy to report that I'm about a month into it, and I love it! I'm also starting as a hostess in a nearby italian restaurant, hopefully along with an extra paycheck it'll bring me some friends of my own. :) One doesn't realize how hard it is to make friends when they're not in actual school (I'm taking online classes) and works with people no younger than 60. I mean, I love my work and my patients...but they aren't usually up for a night out on the town.

I've also decided to call it quits on the whole "following the dream" thing. It's just not happening. So, for now, I'm no longer going to school for journalism (sad face), rather I will be enrolling in a tech somewhere for nursing. Just makes more sense. I really do like what I do now, and if I can stay in the same field but get paid tons more... well then I guess that's what I should do. Maybe someday when I'm not living paycheck to paycheck (and barely getting by with that) I'll find my way back to school and do what I really want to do. Yes, I am a little mad and disappointed with myself for not finishing what I started, and most of all for settling, but I don't see any other option. And, I don't know if I would call it settling. Meh. We'll see what happens I suppose.

As for that boy that I've mentioned over and over... Well I'm happy to report that he's still around. I don't know how I got so lucky, but I don't plan on letting go any time soon. <3

I don't think there's much else to report. I miss my friends. And I miss my family. I've realized that it's a lot easier to be an independent person, when the people one depends on are so close. This has been my hardest obstacle. The unemployment and the career change, those I can handle. But I'm finding it hard to be so far from the ones I love. I've got friends here, and they're great, tons of fun to be around. I'm just saying, it's an adjustment. One that I'm not sure I'll ever make.

Who knows. I do love my life though. And while I miss people more than I can describe, I love where I am. Wouldn't change it for the world.

Later homies.

updates.

Well. It has been a minute. I am great at starting something like this, and then forgetting about it until months later. I tell myself that I'm going to really keep at it this time. But I know deep down the longest I'll go at it is maybe a few weeks. Then a few months down the road I'll wander my way back to my little blog and get motivated to start it again, swearing that this time will be the time that I keep up with it. So, we shall see.

Life has changed tremendously since my last blog in March.

There is a boy. I like this boy. Yes. It is the same one that I have mentioned time and time again.

I moved into that house. The one I was super excited about. . . I stopped being super excited. Life in Oshkosh continued to disappoint. Same stuff different day, you know how it goes. ;) The only thing that really kept things interesting was school. And of course I kept myself busy working more hours than a normal 22 year old should. both ended within a week of each other. [Sidebar ---> = sarcasm.] So all of a sudden I found myself with absolutely nothing to do. Good thing Bethel Home wasn't it the right when they fired my hard working ass. I have been living comfortably from their unemployment checks for about a month.

Yes, I am that lazy bum that has no job and lives on unemployment. But, NO MORE! I am happy to report that I have found an amazing job. A job that makes me ecstatic to say the least that BH said farewell. The best part of this job? Its in Minnesota. Another great thing? So is my grandma. Yep, that same gramma who happens to be a very dear friend of mine. No joke. My g'madre is good shit. Yet one more fantastic happening in my life? I found a subleaser. I get to live with grams for free and not have to worry about what Im going to do with my house over yonder in Oshy. Wonderful.

Life is good.
Life is splendid.
Absolutely perfect.



Fin.

stupid internet.

I just wrote an entire blog. After clicking "Publish Post," it was deleted. Bitches.
To sum it up;

-I waste too much time on FB
-I love The Black Keys
-I want to go to Bonaroo. Norah Jones = Heaven.
-I know this boy. Same one as before. He's pretty great.
-Love learning.

Peace out, Homies.

bleh..

school.clean.work. ------> is my day.

bleh.

grammer.

is spelled wrong on purpose, because I apparently fail at it while blogging, and don't realize it until after I "pubish." Whoops. Goes along with the whole "making up words" thing. My blog. Shut up.

Fin.